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| Me & my buddy, Zero the Hero 11/27/12 |
Working within the mainstream educational system, I often feel stifled and constrained. There is an expectation in the classroom of conformity; students are treated like robots in need of programming. There is a nearly dissociative denial of the present moment and of emotions in the classroom. Growing up I strongly identified with school, even though I felt strangled by the conformity it demanded of me. I am still brainwashed by early childhood conditioning to feel rewarded when I receive stickers. So much so, that I actually give myself stickers for doing certain chores. It's ridiculous, but it works! Stickers and rewards, just like I learned in kindergarten.
One thing I'm reflecting on in reading this post I wrote 10 years ago is how much my drawing style has evolved. This past 6 months I have been focusing on learning to draw and it's cool to see my progress.
ReplyDeleteSomething I learned in school that has been hard to heal is that if I don't quickly and easily master something, then I'm not ever going to be good at it and I should give up. I know this was not meant to be one of the messages of schooling, but in my experience as a student in mainstream public education, it absolutely was!